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I don't even update this space anymore. It feels like a hassle, probably not enjoying it that's why. There's nothing interesting going on, I'm not an interesting person I'm sorry. Been so damn uninspired. Just 3 more days till I turn 19. Growing up, it just doesn't feel right. It's been 19 years and I feel like I haven't achieved anything. Not expecting anything really, just a really nice cake maybe.

Chocolate Overdose

So the other day I made these little devils- s'mores brownies.Well they didn't turn out how i expected it to because i used the wrong kind of marshmallows. It's supposed to be all soft, melty and gooey, the result you get when you roast it on a campfire. But my marshmallows used harden like metapod. (pun intended) It is only after I realised that I used sugared marshmallows. Probably the reason why. Well it's not too bad for a first try I suppose. It's a baked biscuit crust at the bottom + brownie + chocolate + marshmallows. The biscuits were suppose to be graham cracker but I haven't seen any in Singapore so I found a substitute. Lucky boy came home in time to devour the little devils. In return they gave him ulcers, how unforgiving. 

If you're deciding to make some s'mores brownie, do tell me how it turns out! I'm going to give in a second try the next time, and  I'll remember to use the right kind marshmallows. 

Nostalgia

Some people wished they lived their life in a different time. Life would have been nice way before my time, but without the war. I can't put a finger on which decade would I would love to live in. Would I have been one of those women who wore black dresses and stockings, lovely curls and smoking cigarettes? Though despite the allure of nostalgia, it is better to accept the present for what it is.

“Nostalgia is denial - denial of the painful present… the name for this denial is golden age thinking - the erroneous notion that a different time period is better than the one ones living in - its a flaw in the romantic imagination of those people who find it difficult to cope with the present.”

 

No title needed 

Oh god, I've been meaning to blog about the things I've put of for so long.

☐ Second year anniversary @ fairmont
☐ Savour food tasting event 2012
☐ Easter cupcake baking
☐ Random food making

The pictures are lost somewhere in the album full of instagram edits, random daily snaps and 9gag jokes. Oh well, need to tell myself to get a better camera. But for now the phone is my camera, I think there's about 3000 photos in there. Imagine how long it'd take me to look for the pictures and upload it. I hate it when things get complicated, I like when it's just precise and straight-forward. Oh and it was easter last sunday, so here's a chocolate bunny. Enjoy.

This space has been left alone for awhile.

I haven't been busy, just haven't been in the mood to write perhaps. I wanted to write about my second year anniversary, the cooking sessions I had at home and the countless of things on my mind. I just haven't had the mood to pen these things down. Or in this case, punching the alphabets on my keyboard. There are just days where you could just sit in front of the screen and words would seem to fly out of my fingertips, causing me to jab the keyboard non-stop. Hmm, not sure if it is just me or Florence and the machine. The songs always put me in a state of epiphany and it makes me feel like doing a tribal dance every time. Been listening to them since I was 16, I remembered I found the title of the song "Between two Lungs" + "cosmic love" in a magazine UK charts to be sort of queer yet interesting. And that's when I fell in love.

One of the things on my to-do list: Go to Florence and the Machine concert. fuckyea
In the mean time...

 Happy 2nd Anniversary Baby.

I love you so much. It's been 369days multiple that by two with you. Even though we're in a different stage of our relationship now, i still love you the same. Or maybe even more. This love wasn't easy, everything we felt and did was for the first time. We were each other's first love, we had to learn along the way. There were times we fought, we used to fight a lot. I was a difficult girl, but you hung on to me relentlessly. "So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday"-Notebook

This is your sexy lips and the words I did for you on your wall so you would wake up and be reminded that I love you everyday.

This was when you were asleep, you clung onto me like I was your bolster.

This was the very first thing I ever got you. Since 2010, I gave you a madbug.

And the little things you would get for me, means so much.

I love you Christopher, always.

Sweet Cupcakes

I don't know how or when I started to like baking. I mean I used to bake occasionally, but it was just the usual instant cake or cookie mix from Betty Crockers maybe. Now I've got Chris, and he's so supportive in whatever I do. And I seem to have an influence on him in every other way, he just likes whatever I like. I'm just glad that he's interested in doing this baking thing with me. 

So the other day when we were shopping for ingredients and other necessary stuff, I chanced upon this disco dust sprinkles. Cupcakes that sparkled, wouldn't that be nice?

 So we were gonna make a cream cheese frosting, and we bought 2kg of fresh cream cheese. I hope you're not lactose intolerant.

Pictures of our cupcakes frosted with a rose frosting technique. Orders for three lucky girls, I hope they liked it. Makes everything worth it.

sweet dreams, xx

Hello stranger, we meet again.

I have been ignoring this space an awful lot but... I'm back with more posts. I know it's been a week from valentines now, I hope everyone had a great valentines day! My boyfriend's full of surprises this valentines. (And I think I just said the word "valentines" three times already) Well he's been such a sweet boyfriend and I just feel like the luckiest girl ・ω・ He secretly purchased a dress just for me to wear on valentines day. He said he wanted to make me feel like a princess, and a princess wears dresses. And he also mentioned that he would fill my wardrobe with dresses in future. It was a beautiful summer dress, I love love love it ❀◕‿◕❀

And the dress was just part one of the surprise... So apparently we've got quite a few cupcake orders for vday. All from friends of course, well everyone's gotta start somewhere. And so we baked about a hundred cupcakes over the weekend. And I was in the room snuggling in bed, waiting for the next batch of cupcakes to be done. Then Chrissy kept asking me to get outside, but I decided that I was in a comfortable position and therefore didn't feel like getting up. Then apparently there was a delivery that came with a huge bouquet of flowers. It was actually part of his plan for me to be outside when the flowers came. But it didn't matter, I was so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then the bugger kept denying that it was from him and insisted that it must be from one of my friends. Who would believe? I mean, no one else would send me flowers. I've never had such a huge bouquet of beautiful flowers, not to mention with a balloon and a stuffed animal!!! I was bursting with joy ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ Pastel pink colored roses with white carnations, only because red roses are overrated and I don't fancy red roses anyway. I think of vampires, I don't know why. And of course there was a card. When I read it, my heart went all soft and I was weeping tears of joy :'-) Yes I would be your valentine forever, because you said pwease. I love you so much ♡

I figured that I should split the valentines post, so stay tuned for part 2 with more surprises!!! In the meantime, here's a picture of the red velvet cupcakes we made. It was for an order of 5 dozens, thanks for supporting! 

lots of love for everyone, goodnight ◕ ‿ ◕

ps: can you tell? I'm loving the japanese emoticons~

Film

"The story can resume. I will return. Find you, love you, marry you and live without shame."

Starting Over

I have this bad habit of starting all over. Deleting everything, stashing it somewhere in the depths of my memory. Like I am ashamed of everything, like I'd think everything I posted is just total rubbish and no one would like it and I shouldn't let others look back at it. And pictures, I'd hate pictures of myself after awhile. Guess I've always been like this, I wonder when it'd stop. It'd be rather nice to have something to look back at. And the only archives I have are in my head. Well I'm just stopping by this space. Been real busy at the moment, projects and tests and more other stuff. It seems like it's a never ending road and you just wonder when is it possible to just stop everything in the world to just simply live life. 

It's exhausting.

Life's exhausting.

I never liked living a fast-paced lifestyle, and yet I had to be born right here, in this era. I think that I'm such a laid back person, too laid back for my own good. Or maybe if it wasn't put so nicely, lazy's the word. Sometimes I think I could have been an artist, a writer, or perhaps a traveler in my past life. I'd live in a quiet little cottage, somewhere far from the city, or maybe even in a caravan. I'd be a free-spirit, I'd roam the earth. I think I watch too much films, but I like watching films. In fact I just watched one earlier, I loved the movie. Maybe I'll tell you tomorrow, goodnight.